2-25-10 A personal note

I am humbled by the fact that one week ago today I woke up thinking, "I should have cancelled this neurologist appointment; nothing is wrong with my baby." Last Thursday was devastating, but I can honestly say that I am thankful to wake up today and know Dean has CS. Ignorance may be bliss, but understanding brings joy and purpose. I look at Dean differently, not as fragile or unfortunate; but I am able to see what a gift he is and the impact he is able to have already. Ben and I are amazed at how many people are praying for him right now. What a powerful way to start out in life- by being lifted up in prayer by God's people. I believe that God has great things for all my children, but Dean is blessed to have great things being done for him now. I was paging through the New Testament and the titles through out the Gospel books stuck out to me, "Jesus Heals Many, Jesus Heals a Paralytic, Healing of a Boy with a Demon, Healing of the Blind Men," and on and on. Ben and I are trying to prepare for a very serious surgery, but I will not limit what God can do for Dean. We have not had any scans yet of his scull (he was diagnosed visually,) and I still pray that God might not require Dean's little body to undergo surgery. Either way, I am looking forward to seeing God's plan for him unfold. On another quick note...If you want to receive notices when I publish updates, you can become a follower by clicking the "followers" button in the left hand bar. I will try to post as soon as possible when we find out important news especially when we actually are in the "surgery stage." From what I understand, you will receive updates whether you are a public or private follower. I can only see if you are following when you choose the public option. I'd love to know who is reading, but it is up to you.